Full of Happiness

About 2:30 p.m. today, I was consumed by a feeling of happiness, peace, etc. When I picked up Matt, he too was full of happiness. Going to be a wonderful evening. ... still packing... will stop after a few more hours. I know this pc has been a big distraction today. I will not plan to power on tomorrow. haha.. for my own good, my own punishment.

I'm Going To Heaven....

Do you want to go?  I know I do.
Here is a wonderful song.  I thought I would share.

Thinking of Some Teens Out There

For years, I have felt a calling to work with the youth, young adult.  I, myself, have stood in my own way.  This video not only brought joy to me, but reminded me of this call.  I will have to start praying about some things for myself that I have put off.  Some missions work that has been on my heart and soul for a while.  Join me in praying for direction in how I can full fill this call.

I have a teen that is in that era of his life of taking the risk of doing things he knows he shouldn't. As a mother, all I can do is pray for him and trust God to guide him.  What I like about KJ - 52 and a whole lot of other Christian artist, it that the music won't put you to sleep and it will interact with the young mind in ways that a praise and worship song may hit the surface of their ears, but the words not register in their minds. As with music and sites that are geared to grab and hold their attention. 

Anyway, cool video.

Right in our own community, our neighborhoods....

The United States is not a 100% Christian nation. While reaching far countries is still very crucial in spreading His Word, we must not forget our own nation. It still needs saving as well. :-)

Update on Me and Mine

The nasty cold I got from my son, which took him 4 maybe 5 days to fight. Took me about 2.5 weeks. Thought I nicked in the bud. But about 2 to 3 days ago it came back and kicked me in my rear end so to speak. Broke down and went to see a doctor yesterday having to leave work the last 4.25 hours at no pay. ouch. Got a shot and doctor says to stay in bed for 2 to 3 days and eat hot soup and drink warm liquids. Today is my day off thankfully.




Last night, Matt did the dishes in the sink. I was laying down, he wanted to play his WII for a while. I told him could. I got up to check on him and he had semi-washed the dishes in the sink and put them in the dishwasher and started it. Amazing how God shows us His love through others. He went to bed by 9 pm.



Today, we woke up at 6 am, I was alert and ready. That shot from yesterday was a huge relief. Anyway, Got my meds today, taking them like a good little girl.



Tomorrow, I must go to work in spite the doctor's order. I have no paid time remaining until I rebuild it. I can't afford another 10 shift unpaid. This past paycheck had 15 hrs unpaid. OUCH. God is and will get me through this, but geee whiz. No one really to turn to for help besides God Almighty.



Other then this, ALL IS going OKAY.

Survey Results

I took this survey online and wanted to share the results.

Genuine

You are true to yourself and everyone around you. Any obstacle that stands in your way is bound to be crushed with the help of your friends. Since you are so open and real with people, they feel passionate for the person you really are and respect the way you handle yourself. With honesty and friends by your side, you will never lose your way.

Enjoying Life

Nice day out. Getting out of this apartment. Who knows who or what will cross my path.

You know, life can be very lonely.

I guess this is how life is. At least for me.

I had to share this. This was actually given back in 2001, right after the 9-11 incident. The attack on America. It was the first Sunday after, but why I wanted to share this is because the war. Where is the war really? Isn't the war here on our own soil? The war allowing us to express our faith.

We all have rights, those that don't believe and those that do. It seems those that don't want to hear it are acting and preventing us who believe from speaking out. Well at least they are trying.

What about the comercials that promote sensuallity, drinking, etc. Why should we be exposed to those things when we don't want to see them or hear fawl language. Especially during sports events. Why is it that we are not standing up in congress gaining our rights back to pray in school or public meetings? After all this country's founding fathers were strong believers and founded our country on biblical principals.

The After Math

My boys and I hung out at the pool yesterday and most of the regulars were there as well. We had a neighborhood gathering. Today is the big party/cookout finally. Last day for the pool basically due to the water getting too cold.

Like "D" says, it will be time for fall football at his house. hahaha. Hilary, his girlfriend, said, "We normally just have chips, dip, finger food, but occasionally will cook out." I responded, "I am all for it."

Today marks my last day with my oldest for this weekend visit. I have to take him back early due to varsity football practice and a jr. varsity football game. I feel awful I might not be able to stay and watch due to the windows in my car. Not safe leaving it in a parking lot full of people coming and going.

Today I will call my insurance to see how fast I can get a rental and get my car in the shop. Why my car was broken into, I haven't got a clue, but this happened in order that I may grow and prosper in my walk with the Lord. The enemy wants to defeat me, but Jesus is stronger. I may sin from time to time, but thankfully God is merciful to forgive. I am not sure why this happened. The investigator will let me know soon if it was random act or intentional. If you don't know, listen to my voice blog just before this post.

Labor Day -Sunday

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Labor Day Weekend

Well I gotta work this Saturday, but you all enjoy it.

I will be watching the game, OU vs OSU, at work today while I am working. We are having an office tail gate party. hahaha!!!! The drinks will be sodas. After I hang out with new friends and my boys. Maybe this new person in my life and I will get together sometime this weekend. Who knows.

Anyway, Monday my oldest has a JV game. Matt and I will watch as he plays.



Happy Labor Day Everybody!!!

Emotional Infidelity

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Have you ever thought whether or not you are committing infidelity even if there is no physical contact? Listen to this voice blog. It is rather long, but you may enjoy it or you may become angry or you may just not have an opinion. Feel free to comment here or comment on snapvine.

I would love to hear from you whether you are on my list of friends/contacts or not.

"I" Have Something to Celebrate

I have never really paid attention to this before, Women's Rights. I had old fashion thinking until most recently. I thought a women was meant to accent a man in his life. To tend to his needs and the kids and the home. Until lately when I am fighting for stability in my career to be the bread winner of my single parent home.

Funny how things work out sometimes. I thought I would be successful at a young age, then give it up to be a wife and mother. I was forced back into a single life when my ex-husband left finally with the last person he had an affair with. Who knows, maybe it wasn’t his last, but for me it was. Anyway, I have desired the looking nice in sun dresses, preparing luxurious meals, parties to promote my husband in his endeavors, but instead the opposite has occurred. I find myself needing and wanting a career for myself. I have been told for many years that I have a nak for this, the talent for that, etc. I so want to finish school and do something great, but to be honest I don’t have the ability to at this time with how my ex had left me, and I am still picking up the pieces. Luckily there are only a few more pieces to pick up. Thankfully, God has put me back in a technical field. I hope to grow within my current company and still volunteer in my community.

I have actually applied to volunteer for three new organizations here in OKC and one old organization from back home. The one back home is more phone or online support, technical aspects they are needing. I have not heard back from 3 out of 4. The one I have heard from, I suggested an idea. The new leaders seemed to like the idea and are in the process of checking to see if it meets the group’s and company’s approval.

Anyway, I am coming into my own I guess you could say. I am finding out what “G….” is all about. Learning to be independent, bold, and courageous.

Weekend Update

Weekend started off miserable, I was sick, but ended great, got tanned a bit playing volleyball in the pool, won 1 lost 2 games.

Matt ran into a classmate from school and lives a building down from us. I met his mom and her and I may become good friends. She is a single mom too.

Drake's mother, Ashley did not swim, she was sitting in the shade when we arrived. I sat in the shade at first and to my surprise, discovered we had a common interest, the school our children attended and how they were classmates. It was obvious when the boys knew each other's names there was familiarity, so naturally we introduced ourselves.

There were others from the complex and Rod was trying to get enough interested to play a few games of volleyball. Rod is a neighbor who happens to have a twin brother, Rez. I met Rod a couple of weekends ago and he remembered me. I ran home to change to play considering Matt was in the water already playing with his new best friend, Drake.

It was a good Sunday afternoon.

Being Too Honest

I was reading an article about dating this morning. This is a clip I wanted to keep and share, "There is something very sexy about a person who remains a little mysterious, so leave a few shadows in your past." I guess I better learn this technique.

To my surprise there is a guy at work that has made it known of his attraction and interest towards me. The catch is keeping it at a down low due to work. I was flattered, but I am not getting my hopes up, yet at the same time I am not pushing him away. I am just playing it cool. As cool as I can.

I didn't realize there are so many do's and don't to dating. I never dated in junior or high school. Listening to my oldest talk about his friends and his own experiences, the do's and don't come and go. They learn by making them and moving on and then that very same person comes back after they moved on. Interesting. hahaha. It appears with adults, the game is different. Everything I read suggest there is no time to make mistakes and no come backs because adults don't forgive as easily or due to the fact the clock is ticking. Talk about stress. WHO really has it.... the teens or the adults. hhhhmmmm. Hard to say. I can diffinately tell you it is hard. I made a lot of don'ts with the man who has my heart right now and that is the dodgeball goof. I am still praying that he is removed off my heart if God wills it, but if I can be perhaps a bit too honest right now, he is still on my heart always. I don't know what God has in store for me. I thought I knew once, but I am totally not going to worry about it.

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Matt attended his second day of school today. His father called this morning to wish him a good day. I am so thankful that my ex and I are communicating a lot better and smoother in regards to our youngest. It feels great to have peace. As far as our oldest, not the same. There is so much tension built up. They (Chris, my oldest, and my ex) are always findings ways to either keep him away from me or to give me a difficult time when with me. I won't go into how it is difficult, I wouldn't want you to become upset.

Anyway, I am learning to let things slid more and to be swept under the rug. Basically less things are bothering me. I am letting go of my oldest, not because I love him any less or care any less, but he is coming of age where his life is his and he has to decide wether to visit me is important to him or not. I pray one day he will realize I am his mother, not my ex's new wife. I pray he will realize he needs me in his life and will come around more, especially as he gets older. Yes, there was major pain in coming to realize this, but the pain is weaking and almost non-existant.

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Life goes on!!! Whether we want it to or not. All we can do is keep moving forward. Focusing on the positive and most of all focusing on God and our relationship with him through the son, Jesus Christ.

Summer Is Over :-( hahaha

Today I drove my youngest to his new school. He will have a great year, I can feel it. His teacher was very professional and had a stern presence. I like that. It was such a great morning that not even the rain could spoil it. Matt sat at his table and watched me speak to his teacher. I think she was surprised I was one of the few who actually bought all that was on the list for supplies. I knew the list contained a list of items more then enough for one child. It was enough for 2 to 3 kids. But I figured she needed it, if she had it on the list. Matt sat tall in his chair and smiled as he over heard us talking. It was an awesome morning.

Off for the weekend whhooohooo!!!!

Baking a cake. Smells sooooo good. Ummmm hmmmm!!!

My youngest comes home tonight and the oldest comes for a weekend visit.

WOW!!! Half The Year Has Just Flown By!

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A few of you on my list, know me real well, some more then others, and some are too new. Here is just a little tid bit I thought I would share.

The weekend is here, finally.

Just chillin' at home.

It is so hot outside today, sort of glad I am working. Sort of!!!

Just wondering why my sister isn't blogging. :-)

Accidental Angel

I heard this song after watching a unique an interesting moving today. Not what I expected. Not a romantic movie, not a lot of action, not a lot of sorrow, with a hint of comedy, but mostly it was realistic. The movie title, Saving Grace. The song that will lift your spirit both with words and melody.....Accidental Angel....listen...

Mass Migration of Stingrays

Now this was info shared with me via an email. Rather then forwarding, I thought best to share it here. This makes me think of Spring Time. Just yesterday, Feb. 2, 2009, I heard the first sounds of baby birds cherping. Today, there were more singing this morning. The sound was so uplifting and peaceful to hear.

Later in my inbox I see the message below. WOW! GOD is AWESOME!!

HE is El Shaddai! ( HE is more then enough!) When you look around you, where ever you are, you just can't help but see the face of GOD in all of HIS creation.

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Looking like giant leaves floating in the sea, thousands of Golden Rays are seen here gathering off the coast of Mexico . The spectacular scene was captured as the magnificent creatures made one of their biannual mass migrations to more agreeable waters.

Gliding silently beneath the waves, they turned vast areas of blue water to gold off the northern tip of the Yucatan Peninsula . Sandra Critelli, an amateur photographer, stumbled across the phenomenon while looking for whale sharks.

She said: 'It was an unreal image, very difficult to describe. The surface of the water was covered by warm and different shades of gold and looked like a bed of autumn leaves gently moved by the wind.

'It's hard to say exactly how many there were, but in the range of a few thousand'

'We were surrounded by them without seeing the edge of the school and we could see many under the water surface too. I feel very fortunate I was there in the right place at the right time to experience nature at its best'

Measuring up to 7ft (2.1 meters) from wing-tip to wing-tip, Golden rays are also more prosaically known as cow nose rays.

They have long, pointed pectoral fins that separate into two lobes in front of their high-domed heads and give them a cow-like appearance. Despite having poisonous stingers, they are known to be shy and non-threatening when in large schools.

The population in the Gulf of Mexico migrates, in schools of as many as 10,000, clockwise from western Florida to the Yucatan